TheCreator2009

I started this account 6 years ago, back in 2016-2017. Of those years, I spent the last 2 years away from it. Still checking up once in a while but not staying on it like I used to when I was an immature teenager. Now I'm 20, looking back at this place. One feeling : nostalgia. This place is the second social media I made (the first one was Wattpad). While Wattpad was the first place I posted and wrote, Deviantart is the place that influenced me the most through my formative years. I had known about Deviantart ever since I saw many of the Ninjago artists I loved posting there. From oc content to stylised lego style, ever since a young age, I wanted to make my place on this plateform just like those people did. At first, I made my Deviantart as a secondary place where to post my stuff. My Wattpad was still more popular and the few drawings I did didn't get much attention. But over time, I started getting more attention on Deviantart. I started paying more attention to Deviantart, more than to my Wattpad. I ended up being stuck on it, fascinated, unable to not look at it every day. I posted art almost daily, a least really often. Honestly the time I was the most productive was here. So much art, so much attention, people loved my art. I was so happy. Over time, I even ended up meeting great people ! Some are friends that I still have to this day, some are even friends that I talk to daily! Deviantart made me discover a lot of things, good and bad. I made friends when I struggled to, I felt that my art could lead me somewhere someday, I felt part of a community I felt I coulnd't find in real life. But this place is also where I showed my jealousy, my envy, my possessiveness, my selfishness, my lack of caring, and entitelment. This account grew up with me. My art style evolved, my behavior changed and evolved. I grew up with this account. And sometimes when you grow up, you leave other things behind. I moved to Instagram (TheCreator2009 *wink wink*) , and Tumblr (The-angel-creator *wink wink*), I even created a Discord, and ended up doing the same thing I did with Wattpad : I started being more active there instaid. It's normal, we grow and change. Deviantart changed, not always for the best, but it changed. Some people come, some leaves, some stays, it's life. "Did you litteraly made a journal only to say you're leaving for somwhere else ? You could have just made a statuts." Yeah. You're right. I could have totally done that. But the thing is... I'm not leaving. I'm not abandonning this account. But I'm not coming back to the way I was when I posted a lot of content. Maybe in the future I'll post again here like I used to. Maybe it will become a secondary place for me to post. I don't know. It's like leaving your childhood home and coming back once in a while to check up on it. Maybe one day I'll start having dinners there. I don't know. But also, the reason why I made this journal is because of what I realised. Today, something hit me. I went back here and tried to find people I used to talk to. Inactive accounts for years after another. That's when I realised that those people might no longer be part of my life. When I left around 2 years ago, I also left a lot of people that I talked to, friends and all, behind. People come and go, but back then, I swore to myself I'd always be there, I'd always carry my friends with me along my life. I tought I'd never ever forget or lose contact, as I was so scared of losing the people I cared about. But that's what happends. That's what life is. People come and go. You change, you move on to other things. And sometimes you look back and see how far you came. Sometimes, as you grow, you leave things behind. I was really sad when I realised all those people I didn't kept contact with, and now that I have no idea how they are, what they are doing now, I realised how I messed up. I cared about those people, but I left them behind still. Now, there's not much left now that I come back. I left without saying where I went, and now those people are gone, somewhere I don't know, but they are gone. And I regret it. But that's what life is. People come and go. These people were part of my journey, and now they left. I hope they are well and happy wherever they are. Would have been nice to talk to them again, once in a while like an old friend you meet again at the supermarket. But it's not so bad after all. It's sad to let go of friendships, but some are temporary. They are here in the moment, but you grow and change and you lose touch. It's sad, but it's not meant to be. Be glad they were here along the way, be happy you met these wonderful people, and hope for them to have a great life. Even if you don't ever see them again, it's ok. You'll make new friends, you'll keep great ones with you, and it will continue like this. Change is not bad, even if you leave things behind. I'm sad thinking I wasn't there for these people, that I wasn't able to keep in touch. But I made new connections, new experiences, I became part of new communities. To all my old friends I sadly couldn't keep contact with and who are somewhere where I don't know where you are, thank you. Thank you all for having been part of my life, even if only for a while. I'm glad I met such amazing people like you, and I hope you are happy and surrounded by friends, old and new. I will cherish the times we shared as I keep you close to my heart to this day. You are my friends in my heart, no matter how far away you are. Thank you for reading this rambling and all over the place journal. It's a bit emotional for me to write this. My Deviantart account will remain up. I'll check on it once in a while. Who knows, maybe I'll make new friends just like I made back then. :)